March 2009 Archives

Skipping Church this morning as I have succumbed to a nasty cold and thought as I chill to the sound of Classic FM with a decaffeinated coffee and jaffa cake in hand, I would blog. (Try the jaffa cake grab game! My best time is 12:89 can you beat it?) 

Been feeling a bit worried about my last entry as I was feeling a bit morose when I wrote it. I don't want any of my readers to feel burdened by my entries, yet I do want to maintain my integrity and report on life as it is - authenticity is important to me. However do let me know if they ever seem too heavy!

The sun is beaming this morning and I would love to report that despite my cold I am on top of the world but unfortunately it has been another tough week as I had to say good-bye to another dear friend. Val suffered from Multiple Sclerosis for at least 2 decades and I met her 14 years ago when we first moved to Bristol. She was great fun and at times we had such a laugh together. My favourite memory is when we went on a healing retreat together about 13 years ago and discovered that we were woken up each morning by a 'thought for the day' which boomed through a speaker into our individual rooms. Neither of us were too impressed as there was no switch to turn it off and were looking forward to a 'lie-in'. The next morning Val did not appear for breakfast and I knocked on her door. Waking her up I said "how did you sleep through the morning talk?" By this stage she had opened the door and I burst out laughing as I saw a number of towels draped over the speaker!

So it is with great sadness that I let go of Val, but when I think of life from her perspective I am glad that her suffering has ended and that she will now receive what she so much wanted; an imperishable body, which will be raised in glory and with power. 



Feeling a bit 'naff' to-day and wish that Bristol had some prayer surgeries up and running so that I could  'drop in' and receive some prayer. I am feeling mentally tired and a bit low. Steve, my husband has had some major health concerns recently which have been worrying us and I now realise that I miss the support at the school gate! My daughter entered Senior school last September and since then I have lost the opportunity to daily chat to other parents in the playground, at pick-up time. Now she walks home on her own. Having an only child means that these stages are over quicker for me than for my friends with multiple children and thus the ending feels premature.

Also I miss my friend who died recently, I still feel very sad that she took her own life and just wish she was still here. She was a great person.

So I have been asking myself, what is the hope of my faith? What can it give me when I am feeling anxious or low?

Reassurance that all things are in God's hands- the highs and the lows, the good and the bad

Until recently I struggled with Romans 8:28 as I thought it seemed a bit glib, but a little while ago I connected with this verse in a new way when I was taught a song within Bath Community Gospel Choir. The song is a Fred Hammond Song entitled 'All Things are Working and I fought the tears back as I sang words like 'All things are working for me, even things I can't see. Your ways are so beyond me but you said that you would let it be for my good, so I'll rest and just believe.' You can listen to this song if you click Fred Hammond

Since then I have decided that actually my faith is based on Romans 8:28 and that it helps me trust God, when I can't see that all things are working for me.


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